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Monday, October 10th, 2005
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Saturday, September 24th, 2005
1:35 am - Best Friend
Before I go answer my phone... My boyfriend takes care of me. The small things mean the most to me & I feel so lucky to have such a best friend. Last night I got home from work after a very hectic night... I was soaking wet & tired. My boyfriend had been waiting for me to get home. We ate peanut butter oreos w/ milk & played video games until I passed out. He held me until I went to sleep then put my work clothes in the drier after I had washed them. I woke up at 7 to go to work & I was half asleep thinking all of my clothes would be wet still & sad because my boyfriend couldn't stay w/ me. I went to put them in the dryer quickly & they were already there. It made me happy.

current mood: full

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Friday, September 9th, 2005
11:01 pm - Come See My Brother's Band! They Are Good I Promise!
*SIGH* my whole entry got deleted. It was a good entry too. Oh well.
I was just explaining what a very busy person I am right now. It's wonderful though. Hey I wanted to go running tonight & I'm losing time so I will have to write in detail some other day. But I did want to leave this on here.
It's $5 at the door. If you live in the L.A. area you should come! I will be there taking pictures of course.

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Monday, August 15th, 2005
10:33 am

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

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Sunday, August 7th, 2005
3:09 pm - bah
So it was my birthday Thurs... It was very subdued... quiet... but nice. My mom took me out to a nice restaurant/blues club w/ a bar. I ordered two drinks which they almost didn't bring because they thought I was turning 18yrs old & not 24... I ate a lot... got slightly drunk & went home & fell asleep. Then I opened some gifts, had cake & fell asleep for the rest of the night. I felt horrible. I guess that's what happens when you get old... These are really the only two pictures that came out of my birthday. That also happens I guess when you get old... everyone just stops caring or something. I've already stopped caring.
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I do this a lot... where I start feeling like I'm wasting my time or I've wasted my time.

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Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
9:11 pm - gross
n : abnormally dark tarry feces containing blood (usually from gastrointestinal bleeding) [syn: melena]

That's unrelated to this... Tonight I'm going w/ a friend I met in my class to sneak onto the freeway to take pictures using a big camera of construction? Or something like that. All I know is I have to be on the look out for police. I like this. It's exciting. Thurs is my birthday & Friday there's a big party w/ my work... a costume party which I am excited about. I am also very very poor right now. Very poor. Developed a roll of film of Chad's band today at school. The Dead Eye Cells took Judges Choice (which is like first place) in a battle of the bands last Saturday. I am so proud of him. His other band Umbrella got best song writing which was all Corey's songs... really cool. But my little brother is so talented. They all won $200 to Guitar Center not to mention a lot of people offering shows to them... I'm the official band photographer... appointed by myself. But he did promise that I could do his first video... you know if when it comes to that.

current mood: cold

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Thursday, July 28th, 2005
2:31 am - HaHaHa

What Kind of Geek are You?
Favourite Color
Your IQ is quite high
You are a computer geek
Your strength is you can see in the dark
Your weakness is chocolate
You think normal people are stupid
Normal people think that you are disturbed
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Thursday, July 7th, 2005
9:26 pm - Long Time No Type
Hello Hello Hello.

Things are pretty good right now.

But I must go go go.

current mood: rushed

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Tuesday, June 7th, 2005
11:38 pm - So I Took It

Part Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urges
If someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of story
You can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kisses
A total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

Part Expert Kisser

You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettable

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Sunday, June 5th, 2005
2:59 am - I feel like a stupid hoebag
Anyway I lied about that. I actually feel insulted BIG TIME & you know what I still can't talk about it.

Today was my first day of work. It was orientation at the Disney Studios in Burbank. I got my hair cut yesterday & David said I look like a boy. David got fired yesterday as well. It was all total bullshit & lies but I will talk about that later. So anyway this is me today...
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My digital camera is no longer good anymore. Notice the blurry edges & the weird lighting. Look Sparkly Eyes in the last one. Oh well... I don't ever feel like posting pictures of my self anymore. That's where the hoebag part comes in...

I really think I'll enjoy my new job. Especially because there is a huge chance that I will get to see Johnny Depp in person sometime in the future. I'm telling you right now I will cry.

current mood: Not So Great

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12:13 am - Why Does it Always Have to be so Positive?
Romantic Compatibility

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Leo & Libra

When Leo and Libra join together in a love match, theirs is an agreeable union. Being situated two signs apart in the Zodiac, Leo and Libra experience a deep understanding of the inner-workings of the other. When the Lion's unbounded energy mixes with Libra's natural sense of harmony, this is a romance of great balance. Leo and Libra are both outlandish versus reserved, direct versus peace loving. They can enjoy a very smooth relationship because each can appreciate and benefit from the positive attributes of the other.

Libra calms and soothes Leo's flamboyance. As a couple, Leo and Libra are well balanced. Libra lays on the charm and good manners, which tame Leo's direct and acerbic personality. But Leo is far more decisive than Libra. Leo can help their partners to make decisions more easily and act on them, and they can teach the art of spontaneity.

Leo is ruled by The Sun and Libra is ruled by the Planet Venus. The two Signs coming together form the basic foundation of relationships -- warmth and passion. The Sun and Venus go well together. The sun is a masculine energy and Venus a feminine, so this relationship strikes a balance between energies. Venus is about the beauty of romance, and The Sun is about invigorating life spreading warmth. This couple sustain one another for a long time.

Leo is a Fire Sign and Libra is an Air Sign. These two elements combined either fuel one another seemlessly or diminish one another's efforts. Libra can negotiate with the impetus and vigor of Leo, and both partners tend to take part in one another's projects. They have established a perfect balance and tick clockwork! When they are joined, anything is possible, but this couple must be mindful of one another's feelings and desires. Leo's action-oriented approach to may conflict with Libra's more passive, come-what-may outlook. Both Signs have a variety of interests, and Leo's need to get involved gives them great stories to share with the more reserved Libra.

Leo is a Fixed Sign and Libra is a Cardinal Sign. Leo's endurance outpaces the fleeting whims of Libra, the initiator. They have to work together to make their dreams come true. Leo will be the leader because of their strength and forceful nature. Libra will quietly take the reins from an intellectual and team-oriented perspective. Leo likes to give orders through personal authority while Libra charms others into doing things and is happy to placating Leo's giant ego. It's important for Leo to understand sacrifice. Libra, able to see both sides of the argument, can compromise easily, while Leo may be more put out over having to yield.

What's the best aspect of the Leo-Libra relationship? It's the harmony resulting from the union of Venus and The Sun. The balance between self and other represented by this relationship is a great learning experience for both partners. Each partner makes up for what the other is missing, so theirs is a highly compatible relationship.

current mood: Not Happy w/ Self

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Friday, June 3rd, 2005
4:12 am - Why Am I Still Up?
This is my new job & I'm excited about it. http://disney.go.com/disneypictures/el_capitan/soda_fountain/main.html
Jeff & I went to check it out today & then we hung out in Hollywood for awhile. He almost bought a violin for $76 but would not buy me Deep Throat or Debbie Does Dallas on DVD for $40. Do you know how hard those movies are to find? Sense it's really close to my new job, I'm going back to get them. They are still building the store actually. & I didn't realize that the El Capitan was right next to where they film Jimmy Kimble. I am just so so excited about working in Hollywood. The El Capitan is right across the street from The Chinese Man Theater, that big mall w/ the Kodak Theater in it as well, & the Knitting Factory. Also the thousand sex shops & shops of clothing geared for strippers, porn stars, & street walkers along Hollywood Blvd... Oh yeah Club Bang is right around there too. At the new job I'm pretty sure they want me to work in the retail part of the store which is cool because then I will be selling Disney movies all day. I know Disney movies ultimately make me sick... At least some of the more recent Disney movies... But I can't deny knowing almost every single song ever put into a Disney movie & that goes for Disney movies I haven't even seen. My sister is the same way. Also we can both site Little Mermaid from the songs to the actual script from the beginning until the end. I think this job is going to be really fun. & I'm going to get the chance to actually work w/ normal people & I can actually be nice to people again! & It does not seem to be a problem that I'm in school at all which is also really cool. I am just so grateful for this opportunity. I really just need to be around nice people that I can relax around & have fun... & GO TO SCHOOL!! I need to finish school so I can get on w/ my life & not have to worry about working in retail any longer. Oh you know what? They were filming the Damn Show today along Hollywood. If you haven't seen it... it's really disgusting & there's this clown that is absolutely revolting. Jeff took some pictures while they were filming of the clown. I've had a wonderful week off & tomorrow I'm getting my hair cut by Kelly & it's going to be different. Different is good. It's time for a change. I was letting my old job get me down too much. I never wanted it to affect me so much but everyday I was just so drained physically & mentally... it was depressing.

This is totally off the subject but I have this sore in my mouth & I'm pretty sure it's cancerous. I've been reading incidentally & not purposely being exposed to information about gum & mouth cancer & now I'm pretty convinced that I have gum cancer & that half of my jaw is going to have to be removed. But of course I have no dental insurance to really find out. So I've started rubbing salted lemon on it & gargling w/ salted lemon warm water & I'm hoping it just goes away. Lemon is very good for healing cuts & wounds because of the massive doses of vitamin C... I think one lemon has about 40% more then an orange. Also lemon was used to treat scurvy back in the day... Also... one more thing... lemons help prevent cancer. So maybe it'll be doubly affective for me. Sore healer/ Cancer deterrent.

current mood: awake

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Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
7:13 pm
Tonight Jeff & I are going here to see Guy Maddin.  His films are very neat.  I quit my job a week early & I have not been this happy in a long time.  Everything is falling apart pretty badly as well over there.  They still call me when they need help which is daily.  I'm getting a hair cut on Friday & I start training for my new job on Saturday.  It's going to be good.

current mood: procrastinating

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Monday, May 30th, 2005
9:20 pm

Your Birthdate: August 4

Being born on the 4th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer.

You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize.

Sincere and honest, you are a serious and hard working individual.

Your feelings are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times.

The number 4 has something of an inhibiting effect on your ability to show and express affections, as feeling are very closely regulated and controlled.

You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details.

There is a good deal of rigidity and stubbornness associated with the number 4.

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Monday, May 23rd, 2005
2:25 am - Anger Management
There's 199 sex offenders registered in El Monte. 199! That's a lot. Also two registered sex offenders live right across the street from me in the same apartment complex next to 7'11. That's disturbing... especially w/ all the children that live there. I don't feel as safe as I did. Ok granted I am not a minor anymore. If I had children they would never be aloud out of the house unsupervised!

Anyway today it was like 95 degrees inside of my work. Three members of management had to come to the lab to take care of a Ron situation... He fucked up the machine... & I put in my two weeks notice. I swear I could train a chimpanzee to use the printer... & I'd probably enjoy it's company over Ron's too. On the plus at least management got to see Ron first hand. But it left me mad, mad, mad, mad, mad, mad, mad, mad, mad... plus I have this Vicki thing bothering me & I wanted to see Jeff's dad & he was on the phone w/ me while the machine was flipping out & Ron was trying to convince a customer it was my fault & I was standing there sweating bucketfuls sense it was 95 & UGH!! It was really raining down on me at that moment. But you know what... this is one positive thing. I've really been eating better & exercising & my heart doesn't hurt at all... I take my medicine on time... So when Armageddon hit today I was not very happy but I was also not afraid of a heart attack & my heart did not hurt me.

I have anger problems. I have so much hate & anger pent up inside me I could power a whole City.

Finally got a hold of Melanie yesterday on her birthday after trying to get her number for two weeks. I'm going to see her tomorrow. She's doing a lot better then when she lived w/ me. Plus no more Edgar. It's like getting old Melanie back... before she started acting less intelligent.

Have I ever admitted to not being a good friend? Well it's true. I don't consider myself to be one.

current mood: tired

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Friday, May 20th, 2005
8:42 pm
Ok so I was just hired at this brand new store next to the El Capitan Theater in Hollywood. Now I have a new job & training starts on June 4th. Tomorrow I put in my two weeks. But man I am depressed. I am so depressed & lonely lately. I just want to cry forever right now. I also ran over Jeff's foot w/ my car today.

current mood: sad

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Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
2:16 am - This is so sad of Me

You are the drawing.

Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
7:20 pm - Work Sucks & I MEAN It!
Oh man I am tired & my head hurts. I spent all day pretty much alone ... again... in the lab. We are down to five people now & still no manager. Oh & the manager who is at my old store is taking over & he took all my options away. I can't even order supplies for the lab. He also told me I had no business in the back getting our reports & writing down sales because I was not manager. I wanted to just say 'No shit'. Because of the whole thing w/ Anna they think I have this huge power issue. Not even true at all. Then David is running around doing whatever he wants to do... as far as the merchandise & the cameras. The whole department is pretty much destroyed... & I have no options. So I refuse to do anything at all anymore... I also called Kurt again & begged him to transfer me. He's going to have an opening in a few weeks & will call me. I hope it works out. I told my store manager today that I was either transferring to Covina or putting in my two weeks. Go me... Anyway Vivian called me today & I told her that Hugo hated me... She said all she ever does is talk good about me & tells him how she knows I'm the only one working over there because that's how I was in Duarte... I mean pretty much I held the Dept together. When I told her about my options she was shocked & said 'Well he wants the dept to fall apart... let him' & I agree. It's just the most frustrating place to be in though I can't explain it. This is worse then when Cyndie left Duarte... this store is the worse place I have ever worked at before. There's a meeting tonight that I really really don't want to go too... I have a feeling that basically it's going to be Dawn bashing time. It makes me feel ill. At least I didn't have to work w/ David today though. I have to say that's the one positive thing about it.

current mood: foreboding

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Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
3:43 pm - I'm An Adult I Can Do What I Want
Here is my example of a typical journal entry: 'I'm an adult; I want to die; beep beep boop boop'
It was funny to my brother at least. When ever I do something weird or I don't want to do something my excuse to Chad is 'I'm an adult' like 'Yes I can light fires to things I'm an adult' 'I can hate for no reason I'm an adult' We know this is in reference to my father's aunt Yoda... (Her name really wasn't Yoda it was Leoda I think) yes but one time when my brother was small he told her she shouldn't smoke & she said 'I'm an adult so it's ok. Adults can do anything' & it made it sound like adults were invincible to everything... even cancer. Well several years later & Aunt Yoda has, I'm pretty sure, died from lung cancer we know that adults can't really do everything. It's funny because Jeff's nephew has started saying things like that about smoking... how his mommy says that smoking is bad. I told Jeff he should just tell him that his mommy is a jew & she killed God... actually I'm just joking. (Jeff don't kill me for writing that.)

Anyway work is still crap. It took me two nights of working practically over night taking apart the machines & cleaning the lab to get it back up to Cyndie's standards & even then I know she would have said it was messy. But the lab looked excellent & the all the pumps on the processor are pumping correctly now & the it's back in tolerance & it makes me feel good. & Our district manager came & everything that I had done we scored 100 on. The stuff that we didn't do so well in... mainly the paper work I guess he's giving Ana until Friday which is really decent of him to do. I'm off on Friday & I'm opening Weds & Thurs so if the lab does not look as good on Friday I would hope that John would realize something. His last visit I was off too & it was not a good one. One of our DPC machines was not responding to anything... like it was on just not touch sensitive. I looked over it & re-plugged everything I thought... so anyway I called Ana & told her. That was last week... I was off a couple of days after that. John looked at it when he came in & I guess a mouse wasn't plugged in. I asked him what wasn't plugged in & he wanted to know why I didn't call a tech to fix it & why it was left for a week. Ok first of all my job is to notify my manager which I did. I do not feel like I have the authority to make decisions about calling for help w/ out my manager's permission. Of course Ana was right there so I could not say it like that... I'd feel too bad about it. But in all honesty he should be happy that we didn't call a tech that gets paid for $20 an hour just to come in & plug in a plug. It's a frustrating position to be in because believe me if I were manager I would be running things a lot differently & I know exactly what should be done... but I am not manager so I should not have to take up slack for my manager's decisions or lack of decisions. The sad thing is I could easily take over & step up & even talk to Ana as if I had more authority & I think she would almost let me like she lets David but I can't do it. I'm trying to be as respectful as possible.

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Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
1:08 am - I Look Sickly
But I really like this photo
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I would give anything to not have to do tomorrow. If I could just stay in bed forever I would. I really hate my work. I mean it goes beyond just saying you dislike where you work. My work makes me feel ill. I've been really quiet about my days lately. It's just awful. I go in & no one talks to me... almost every day. Supposedly I'm 'department lead' but my manager won't talk to me instead she has David doing all of her lead work & he won't talk to me either. It's very secretive. I want to vomit everywhere while I'm there. I wanted to walk out several times today... it made me so ill. I don't know what I'm doing in life any more... I have no real goals it feels like... My self esteem isn't too high right now as far as being social. Every day I go into work realizing that half of the store hates me because of what two people keep saying behind my back. It's really not right. For over a year now this job has been by far the worse jobs I have ever had & it has nothing to do w/ the job its self but everything to do w/ the people associated w/ the job. I'm exhausted by all of this. It's made me very sensitive & more anti-social. All I ever want to do right now is hide out w/ Jeff & my brother. Jeff is the only person I know who will be nice to me. Sometimes I think of just giving up & moving out to Moorpark to be w/ him because I don't want stuff here... But Moorpark is kind not where I want to be either. Honestly I need to figure something else out ASAP.

I went to school tonight & printed more pictures. School is almost over. Thats sad. I saw Vicki after school for a little bit. She made me a coffee milk shake. She met a guy who comes to her work at night a lot w/ his girlfriend that works over night at my work & he knows who I am. After some thought I remembered him... we've never talked... he just started actually but he has a mohawk & he's one of the few people who doesn't look at me w/ hate... I swear it's very true. He looked nice...

current mood: disgusted

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